In just a short week, we will meet face to face. I was hoping we could have a heart to heart before then. Until now, I feel like I've been in a café stealing glances at you wondering if we are going to get along when we finally meet. Here's the thing; I want to get along with you, honestly I do.
When I look back at other birthday milestones, I see a lot of toil and strife. This year, I am hoping to take a deep breath and relax. I also want to team up with you and I have a proposal. I'll be good to you - and you be good to me. If you go easy on me with all the classic insecurities that crop up with aging, I'll do my part to make it a good year. I'll eat right and exercise, I'll get at least 6 1/2 hours of sleep. Maybe 7 hours if good fortune shines upon my pillow. I won't complain about aging - as much. I will embrace the process.
When we meet, I don't want to suddenly be plagued by self-doubt or crippling self-consciousness. I don't want to chase down the best anti-aging-wrinkle-fighting creams or get sucked into infomercial products that will fight or erase signs of aging. I don't want to continue coloring my grays every 4 weeks, perhaps you could extend this cycle by a week? If you could you work with me on little things like that, I feel like we'll be a great team and accomplish good things in the year to come.
While we are talking about positive change. Can we talk about a special monthly time? I mean, the last 5 years have been; R O U G H. I mean if you could just lighten up. Literally, lighten up, for the Love of. Which leads me to the menopause symptoms. I understand this is the natural order of an aging woman, I accept that. All I'm asking for is a hot-flash-flip from night to day. That's it. The night cycle wakes me up out of a dead sleep and keeps me awake for at least an hour. This interruption in a 6 1/2 hr sleep cycle costs me much during the day. Just a little flip. Night to day. Is that really a lot to ask?
What I am hoping you bring to the table is prolonging growing comfortable in my own skin. Even if it is wrinkled with age spots. I want to sustain owning who I am and apologizing less for who I am not. I want to continue the practice of more grace and less judgement towards myself with the ability to recognize I'm doing my very best. I want to really uphold being okay with making mistakes and not being ashamed when I inevitably do. I want to face the days with much less fear and so much more courage. I forge ahead growing and learning all the things that are important in this short life. And I'm cautiously looking at you to usher that in for the upcoming year.
45, let's work together this year. Let's make some great memories. Let's have some fantastic laughs. Let's do fun and spontaneous things-before 9:00 p.m. Let's pursue matters of the heart and love fiercely. Let's focus on things that matter, like people and less on things that don't, like debates. Let's practice self-care that encompasses mind, body and spirit. Let's take care of each other and be friends, okay?